Saying Goodbye

As I took the time to prepare for my journey I was constantly plagued with fears like "what if I can't back my camper into a site?" or "what if I just get really exhausted but still have to travel?" but I came to realize my greatest fear was saying goodbye.

I worked so hard to build a community of the most wonderful and caring people. I created routines that made me feel comfortable and loved. I had the opportunity to watch my friend's children grow. And now I've left them all behind.

Of course, I know they will only be a phone call away but a hug from my mom is healing, a knowing smile from a friend is reassuring, dinners with my dad are rejuvenating, and being teased by my sisters (and Duane) is all I've ever known. Of course, I'll be back, this isn't really goodbye, and yet it feels like it.

I built a community with my CrossFit gym that I will be eternally grateful for. Not only has CrossFit helped me fall in love with fitness but it has brought me new friends I had not anticipated. It reminded me that like-minded people are strongest together. It created a sanctuary for positivity only.

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Too many people have touched my life to list them all but a few deserve an incredibly special shout-out:

Mom- you have been the greatest fan of my life. You have encouraged me in every way and your hugs really are magic. Thank you for helping me fall in love with the outdoors, teaching me the joys of camping, and building me up to take on this journey. You raised me to believe I can do anything, and because of you, I can.

Dad- you remind me constantly how proud you are of me and call me "an incredible woman" words I deeply cherish. Your belief in my capabilities makes me feel strong and empowered to take on anything, so with your support, I do.

Duane- you have been the MOST instrumental part in my undertaking. You have taken countless hours to teach me how to drive/operate/and live in my camper. You have worked endless hours preparing the camper for use and helping me research everything I need. You've provided guidance and wisdom that has made me confident enough to try this. Your confidence in me has made me feel comfortable with learning (so much), so with your help, I will.

My friends: your support has meant the world to me. Leaving you may be the hardest because you are the community that chose me and loved me deeply. You have held me through the beautiful and the tough parts of life and now you send me back into the world alone knowing I can always come home to you.

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All of this being said. Taking on this journey is terrifying and exhilarating. I could not do this without all of my people. To you I say thank you, this is not goodbye, it's just see you later.

All my love